We all have regrets and go through dark times in our lives. Over the past year, I have faced one of my biggest regrets that will continue to haunt me for the rest of my life.

Under Surveillance takes place when I was facing the consequences of my actions. Regretful decisions led to a huge mistake, which ended in a case being filed under my name. I was embarrassed and afraid to face my family and friends. I was always worried about what they would think of me.

The main focus of Under Surveillance is the consequences that I had to face after I was arrested on a warrant in December 2022. I was then released and sentenced to house arrest, which was followed by a year of probation. Being on house arrest was a significant moment for me mentally.

For a while, I had a difficult time trying to face myself for my actions. I viewed myself as a different person. I became upset, frustrated, and angry with myself knowing that one mistake led to all of this. I constantly questioned myself, “Why? Why did I do this to myself? Look where it got me….” I got to the point where I did not know if I should feel sad or angry, which ultimately led me to feel blank, empty, and lost. I had a hard time facing what I had done and that I would have this under my name for the rest of my life. I regret it every day

However, it was during this period that I did more self-reflection. I learned how to face myself and be able to cope with my regrets and feelings. As an artist, I have utilized this dark space to depict this dark moment in my life. Under Surveillance has been my outlet to help myself handle everything I have gone through.

In this space, you will see large self-portrait prints and enlarged documents that I have accumulated throughout my battle with the court. My mistake has compounded into bigger consequences, regrets, and moments of self-reflection. I hope my gallery speaks to you and allows you to reflect on yourself.

Lastly, as you view Under Surveillance, ask yourself, “Do you have any regrets?”